Out Out, Damn Spot

So my mammograms were fine and my bloodwork is fine, but the chest X-ray showed a tiny spot on my right lung that Dr Lim thinks we should check out further. To that end, I have a CT scan today.

I have mixed feelings about this. In sane moments I can't believe for a minute that I can have developed a new cancer or that an old cancer could have spread given the treatment I've had over the last two years. Statistically it's very unlikely. It makes more sense that this is just a shadow on the X-ray or (per Dr. Lim) some kind of pulmonary nodule to which frequent fliers are prone. And, as my friend Amye pointed out, if everyone got checked up as often as I do, they'd probably all find mysterious lumps and bumps.

But at my lowest (typically late at night) I start mentally planning for the worst.

Stressful.